Panic Attack

 

~ art by Bekkii Spain

It’s a smooth ride on a nice new page but boom out of nowhere a panic attack, everything felt like it was arching over me at once and boom it collapse right on me. A form of anger rushing throw my vines, boiling by the minute, as each task is added to my to do list, which wasn’t even a list but a messy pile of unorganized junk throw right at you at once and you are drowning at the bottom of it with no space for air, your breath growing heavy struggling to get air to your lungs as the pile push down into them causing pressure in your chest. Your take that feeling with you wherever you go even on the road. Rushing between cars making bad decisions at the heat that you clearly can’t take. “Move out the way you dumb bitch” I wouldn’t describe myself as an angry person but those are the words that come out of my mouth as I approached the roundabout. “Learn how to fucking drive”. Dropping my keys on the way out of the car. This is how a panic attack feels like, welcome to my daily routine